Fake It ´Til You Make It (Faking =/= Lying)

I´ve come to the realization that I am an amazing faker.

Back story... I´m having a really hard time spiritually right now. It´s just a time filled with doubts and silence. I really just want to be out of this place, and back home. (Soon enough eh?)

So, me and Bax were talking today (we do that quasi-regularly now) and I faked it through my teeth. I said I was doing OK, I said everything was alright, but I was just anxious to get home.

But anyway, I am really anxious to get home, but I am struggling big time with God. I am struggling with the silence I am getting from him, and I am having a lot of doubts...

So yeah, I don´t really know what to do with that...

The Lunatic Is In My Head

Holy freakin crap, I really need to get outta here. I´m going insane! I´ve got a crap load of work that I don´t wanna do, have no motivation to do; I´ve got a yearbook that has to be done tonight, and I don´t know how far along it is; I´ve got STUPID people I have to deal with 24/7 that I just wanna kill...
I´M GOING OUT OF MY MIND!

"there´s someone in my head and it´s not me" - Pink Floyd