Back to the grind, sort of

Well, it's back to the grind for gary. school started today. so far i've only had 1 class (philosophy and society, basically an ethics class), and I'm already over school. that's bad. but this semester, i've really got to push my way thru and get some good grades. i failed a class last semester (i've never failed a class before) and it's kinda freaking me out.

i always rationalize my C's by saying, "What the heck was CU thinking when they put Arts and Sciences together? I'm under the College of Arts and Sciences, so, even though I'm going to be a film major (I still need to change my major to that) I have to take 13 stinking credits of science classes. CU should know, Arts kids HATE science, and vice versa. I don't know what they were thinking.

But anyway, I really need to pull my grades up this semester, I've been slacking. I'm in college now. I need to get my crap together and actually read the material and study for the tests.

And now, on top of everything, I've got to find another new job. It seems like every semester I have to find a new job. So on top of being back in school, I have to get trained and used to a new job and schedule. It sucks.

And so now, I'm sitting in the UMC, bored already, and I started reading people's blogs. I've made an interesting discovery. People's blogs (the ones that I read anyway) make people communicate more introspectively. It seems like they're writing to themselves, flow-of-consciousness style, in a way that you wouldn't hear them talk out loud. It's kind of interesting.

Maybe I'll make it my (second) new years resolution to blog more. Maybe then I'll know a little more about what goes on inside my own head. I've always felt like I never know what's going on in my own heart and head. It's like my consciousness is too far separated from them, and it becomes very difficult to communicate to other people, or myself, what I'm feeling or thinking about.

I feel like a vegetable.