the theme song for my life

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain

And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane

I just want someone to say to me oh, oh, oh, oh
I'll always be there when you wake yea, yea
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain

And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
You don't like my point of view
You think I'm insane
Its not sane......it's not sane.

I just want someone to say to me oh, oh, oh, oh
I'll always be there when you wake yea, yea
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

(I'll have it made, I'll have it made
You know we're really gonna
Really gonna have it made
Gonna have it made)

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honestly, this song is exactly how i'm feeling right now... blah.

I'm just so out of it (it as in everything) lately. I think it's been that way since I've been home, but now it's more prevalent. I don't understand why I (want to) sleep all day, and all I can say is that my life is pretty plain. I finally got a job at Conoco (a gas station). And I thought it was all good, but I was sitting in the back room the other day, putting hotdog buns into bags to put out on the grill and I thought, "what the hell am I doing!?!?!? I'm working at a gas station! I honestly never thought I would be working at a gas station. There's nothing wrong with it for some people, but I just feel like I've been downgraded (job-wise). I hate it, to be honest. But, I needed a job and an income, and this is it for now. I guess I'll keep an eye out for something that would be more fun, fulfilling, or even worth while.

I just don't get anything right now. I don't feel like doing anything, I have no passion for anything (even this video game that I was obsessed w/ is just like "meh" now. Lame example, I know, but suck it). I just feel like I'm slowly but surely dying. I kinda feel like getting smashed, high, or something to like, wake up... (don't worry, I won't)

What the hell is going on with me and in me and around me and above me and through out my sick sad little world?